I did not do my homework (math, sometimes biology/chemistry) and no I wake up realizing I f****d my future up?
I feel so bad – I feel like I have failed my family and myself. I have been accepted into the biochemistry program, but I have done bad at the community college level. I would have online homework for organic chemistry and run back and forth between the solutions manual and just plug in the answers there. That is not learning, and it is a waste of college tuition. My grades are all in the 2s and upper 2s, some 3s. All of my humanities courses (history, literature, composition, etc. are upper 3s to 4.0). I find the sciences have more substance to them. I also am finding my calculus class very hard right now. I am retaking it, but I blew my chance the first time at the university, where note sheets were even allowed on tests. Now, professors I have talked to do admit that the high percentage on a physics test is a 50-60% (low!). So it can be outrageous sometimes. Even so, I feel like I did not pay close enough attention in organic chemistry, which is in my major. I read the book for hours on end, but that does no good for the grade. This time I am skimming the main points and getting much more out of it. It is all strategy for studying that one learns. But I wake up in my bed staring at all the scholarship placards hanging on my wall and I regret not listening to a student who pulled me aside before a biology test one time (last minute request for study material) telling me to get my act together and study ahead of time. I am premed, but my GPA hangs at a 2.7~2.8. My university gpa has just been screwed by a 0.0 in calculus. I have just lost it. I waste time fiddle fadling and not enough studying.
What do you think?
I have nothing else going on in my life but this right now. And I have no "extra" money for other things/recreation that often. So when I lose in school I lose everything.
I do admit that I kinda suck at the sciences/just doesn’t click in my head. However, I have a determination that stems from my father to prove myself. Sometimes I am a bit cocky and think I know more than I do ![]()
I have matured a LOT in the past year alone. By going to the university where I finally wanted to go, but failing some, I am facing in a new, more mature direction. I was told it would be harder. But I did not take it to heart then.
yah man. Well I should mention that I also have aspergers disorder. Not sure if that really contributes here though or not.
