I have spent the last 16 years in nursing. ( I originally went into nursing because I was unemployed and nobody would give me a job and I created a new career as a nurse for myself).
I have hated nursing, but have stuck with it because I have had two children to provide for and my wife has always worked part time. Now I have had enough.
I have lost my job as a nurse because I have fallen out with my employers. Because of something they have done – not me.
I don’t want to spend a single second working as a nurse again. I have worked in all kinds of nursing jobs. Medical wards, surgical wards, A &E, clinics , agency and bank etc
Now I feel like I am on the scrapheap at 38. I have just started to sign on and claim benefits but I just want to be happy and to have a happy job and career.
I have always wanted to write and that has always been my dream and I really hope to do that one day but it won’t pay the bills yet ! But I feel it is what I was born to do.
I do read the tarot cards and am thinking of trying my luck at doing it full time ( as a business) but don’t know if I can make enough money by doing that ? I do enjoy it. And I have made small amounts of money online by helping people with my readings.
I wouldn’t mind becoming a photographer but that seems a long way off and there doesn’t seem much chance of that making money. Considering I can’t even afford a flippin camera !
I wouldn’t mind becoming a freelance journalist for local papers but I’m not sure how I can go about getting stories and I have no journalism degrees etc.
Most of the jobs in the job centre are really poor pay compared to nursing and I am scared to death of being on the dole forever.
I am feeling pretty low one minute and optimistic the next.
I can’t affird to do any big courses to retrain. I have debts ( about £ 7000 ) and a degree is out of the question.
One option is just to spend the rest of my life being a journey man and doing different jobs for the rest of my life, no matter how crappy they sound. That way I will get lots of new skills and even variety. Maybe I would even find a job I like. I have worked as a nurse for so long , I really have no experience in doing anything else.
Please please if anyone has any advice, I would appreciate it. Its christmas and I feel like my life has sunk like the titanic and at 38 I am not a young man or an old man.
Please help,
Paul
A brief background ( incase you are still reading)
I was bullied psychologically and physically at school from the age of 7 -15. I recieved no help or counselling and as a result I failed all my exams. Not for want of trying. I went to college and passed all the exams over 2 years and was all set for a career in law. Passed to Alevels and then met a girl. Got engaged and her family persuaded me to pack it in and get a job in a camping shop, which I hated. ( I was foolish, I should have told them to mind their own business. But foolishly I listened)
Then she lreft me for another guy and over the next months I lost my job, spent a while on the dole and then worked my way up in nursing.
And here I am all these years later.
I am sorry this question is so long and I really appreciate your time in reading it. But I just need some help and advice. I want to build my life up again.
Paul
I have also been think of perhaps training somehow to be a counseller, that way I can do something positive to help other people. Instead of looking back at my childhood in anger. Not sure if this is easy though.